Im hurting right now, dont know why. The closer i get to moving home. The emptier i feel. Kind of like closing a good book before the end and knowing you wont ever know the ending. Im walking away from one possibility in my life into another. I just wish i knew why. So many years i thought i was happy, thought everything was fine. I guess i was trying to deny the hole within me. That painful feeling... when you say goodbye. Strong word for me, ive had to use it alot in my life, my father having been in the military. Hurts me everytime i use it, hurts bad because it makes me remember. Friday is when i have to say it one more time. And im left truly wondering why....